Suddenly I understood that God was, for me at least, one of the most certain and immediate of experiences...I had no control over these things. I came to the conclusion that there must be something the matter with these philosophers, for they had the curious notion that God was a kind of hypothesis that could be discussed. I also found it extremely unsatisfying that the philosophers offered no opinions or explanations about the dark deeds of God. These, it seemed to me, merited special attention and consideration from philosophy, since they constituted a problem which, I gathered, was rather a hard one for theologians. All the greater was my disappointment to discover that the philosophers had apparently never heard of it.

Memories, Dreams, Reflections